I love the show FRIENDS, i especially like this episode when Ross loses his temper due to all the stress, to the point where the only good thing happening in his life is this delicious thanksgiving turkey gravey moist sandwich. One day he goes to work and somebody eats his sandwich but he doesn't know who, so the next time he brings his lunch he notices it's missing again!! And when he finds out who he loses it!
I guess i can relate because sometimes its the small things in your life, be it a sandwich, that can help make the day see a little bit brighter. For me that could be immersing my self in a good tv show, relaxing on the couch, or even eating this delicious tres leches cake that just makes me feel at home (thats why i'm trying to find a healthier recipe).
check out the clip on youtube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XOg641CGkyY&feature=related
of sorts
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
struggle
the only thing i want people to realize is hard or a struggle is that i some how have to find a way to start and complete three goals at once, exercise, taking insulin, and eating right. Sometimes exercise and what i eat changes the insulin, which in turn can make me go high or low. Sometimes i don't have the energy to exercise because of the insulin or because i didn't get my carbs right, sometimes i can't eat right because i don't have money or the patience to try new foods or even cook, which in turn affects my sugar and energy to exercise. It's like the snake eating itself sometimes, finding balance is hard so don't blame me for wanting to eat something out of the ordinary, exercise while high, or even ignore checking my sugars when all i want is a day without having to do so much upkeep on myself. Part of me just wants a life outside of being diabetic, and even though ignorance is bliss, you have to admit rome wasn't built in a day. (can't forget depression, sometimes depression makes me want to nothing at all but hide underneath the covers, it's actually kinda hard to snap yourself out of that kind of mood sometimes)
Sunday, July 4, 2010
domo going on new place
1. I moved to a new state, near the ocean. I have yet to hang out at the ocean, i think i just like to live near the ocean...not necessarily be in it. Plus i hate swimsuits, fluffy people shouldn't wear bikinis i think.
2. Things i dream about: being back in highschool, failing all my classes but not caring, and my brakes not working. I personally don't care for dreams, i just like the sleep portion of it all. Best dream i can remember is helping buffy the vampire slayer scoobies or when i went on a shopping spree and had toooonnss of money but alas woke up to nada.
3. New place, should warrant a new me right? Nah, i think my husband was right, every place is the same. Not really a bad thing, but the loner i have become just doesn't shake with age, despite my openness to meeting new people. And like i told my friends before i moved, "i'm still going to have diabetes where i move aren't I" (reference to all the hope and energy i put in to moving, don't get me wrong i like it here i'm just adjusting slowly and even more so alone then i have been in years, with no family or friends present, and my husband deploying ain't so great either)
4. Home may be where the heart is, in that case a little piece of it is in okinawa and now even ohio. But most of all home is really home wherever and whenever my husband is.
5. I don't understand why my apartment doesn't have a air conditioner, how else can i watch my fave shows in luxury coolness? I happen to love Prison Break, Lost, Law Order SVU, friends, how i met your mother, fear itself, veronica mars,and BTVS and ANGEL
6. My two teacup chihuahuas are little terrors, they are the only terrors i plan on having in my life. They are so cute though, especially when they greet me at the door or when they try to use their little legs to jump on the tall couch.
7. Eating- i am not eating good food right now, it seems whenever my hubby is around i can't help but eat fast food. We have tried cooking on our foreman grill (which is a big leap, from not cooking meat at all). I went on a garlic bread kick for a while, i love it so much. Basically i'm trying to just remember to take my medicine with the food i eat, yes i know you can gain weight, but it's better than not taking my medicine at all right?
8. Exercise- i love turbokick, turbojam, i WANT turbo fire. I did a turbo kick class last weekend, i worked out so hard (did two turbos in a row e.g. two two minutes of high intensity after working out for half hour), but then i ended up sleeping the whole weekend and being so sore that i ached when i reached out for stuff.
9. Medicine - i'm notrious for self medicating myself with insulin. People ask why would stop taking your medicine, well my depression is creeping back in (new place, new worries, new bills!!) and really diabetes is the last thing i want to worry about. For example this week we calculated our bills all wrong and have zero money for food or gas (thanks to mom for helping out till next pay day). I'm surprised my anxiety didn't kick in (i must be doing better since taking antidepressants, and having my hubby around, and taking some insulin because i remember one time i got a 500 dollar er bill and cried for an hour). Anyway, bad diabetes usually leads to bad infections and not so nice stuff. As much as i hate restarting my diabetes regimen, because i tend to oversleep which depresses me more and leads to overeating plus going from high sugars to even 200 makes me tired as heck, it did stop some of the infections and i'm trying my best to fix my sleep.
10. I don't want to work, but i'm going to have to start, i need something to keep me on schedule. I wish i could work at legoland and just build lego structures all day. Which reminds me, i really want to buy lego harry potter...
Little about me for the noobs: type 1 for three years now (happy diabetes anniversary to me, that strawberry cheesecake was delicious), i am currently using the omni pod which i do love but i hate to sleep on. I not your typical diabetic, heck i was making jokes about having one foot in the grave months after diagnoses (as waitress, i they always got a kick out of that i guess), I believe i am the kind of person that makes great first impressions but then when you get to know me i tend to make horrible second impressions. I am in no way shape or form the perfect diabetic, my gravestone will say "died from sugar." I tell people when i'm low please give me a mountain dew, ha! though i cannot condone eating so unhealthy (it's like i ever went to the store bought every reese peanut butter candy bar and sent them to my husband, ha i do support candy for troops), i do think having a treat once in while, or planning for sweets, or finding new alternatives to sweets (remainder to get recipes from gerri :). I judge not, and i prefer the term fluffy (points if you can guess what comedian that is). If you need a shoulder to cry on please add me as a friend, we can talk it over with some sugar free jello.
2. Things i dream about: being back in highschool, failing all my classes but not caring, and my brakes not working. I personally don't care for dreams, i just like the sleep portion of it all. Best dream i can remember is helping buffy the vampire slayer scoobies or when i went on a shopping spree and had toooonnss of money but alas woke up to nada.
3. New place, should warrant a new me right? Nah, i think my husband was right, every place is the same. Not really a bad thing, but the loner i have become just doesn't shake with age, despite my openness to meeting new people. And like i told my friends before i moved, "i'm still going to have diabetes where i move aren't I" (reference to all the hope and energy i put in to moving, don't get me wrong i like it here i'm just adjusting slowly and even more so alone then i have been in years, with no family or friends present, and my husband deploying ain't so great either)
4. Home may be where the heart is, in that case a little piece of it is in okinawa and now even ohio. But most of all home is really home wherever and whenever my husband is.
5. I don't understand why my apartment doesn't have a air conditioner, how else can i watch my fave shows in luxury coolness? I happen to love Prison Break, Lost, Law Order SVU, friends, how i met your mother, fear itself, veronica mars,and BTVS and ANGEL
6. My two teacup chihuahuas are little terrors, they are the only terrors i plan on having in my life. They are so cute though, especially when they greet me at the door or when they try to use their little legs to jump on the tall couch.
7. Eating- i am not eating good food right now, it seems whenever my hubby is around i can't help but eat fast food. We have tried cooking on our foreman grill (which is a big leap, from not cooking meat at all). I went on a garlic bread kick for a while, i love it so much. Basically i'm trying to just remember to take my medicine with the food i eat, yes i know you can gain weight, but it's better than not taking my medicine at all right?
8. Exercise- i love turbokick, turbojam, i WANT turbo fire. I did a turbo kick class last weekend, i worked out so hard (did two turbos in a row e.g. two two minutes of high intensity after working out for half hour), but then i ended up sleeping the whole weekend and being so sore that i ached when i reached out for stuff.
9. Medicine - i'm notrious for self medicating myself with insulin. People ask why would stop taking your medicine, well my depression is creeping back in (new place, new worries, new bills!!) and really diabetes is the last thing i want to worry about. For example this week we calculated our bills all wrong and have zero money for food or gas (thanks to mom for helping out till next pay day). I'm surprised my anxiety didn't kick in (i must be doing better since taking antidepressants, and having my hubby around, and taking some insulin because i remember one time i got a 500 dollar er bill and cried for an hour). Anyway, bad diabetes usually leads to bad infections and not so nice stuff. As much as i hate restarting my diabetes regimen, because i tend to oversleep which depresses me more and leads to overeating plus going from high sugars to even 200 makes me tired as heck, it did stop some of the infections and i'm trying my best to fix my sleep.
10. I don't want to work, but i'm going to have to start, i need something to keep me on schedule. I wish i could work at legoland and just build lego structures all day. Which reminds me, i really want to buy lego harry potter...
Little about me for the noobs: type 1 for three years now (happy diabetes anniversary to me, that strawberry cheesecake was delicious), i am currently using the omni pod which i do love but i hate to sleep on. I not your typical diabetic, heck i was making jokes about having one foot in the grave months after diagnoses (as waitress, i they always got a kick out of that i guess), I believe i am the kind of person that makes great first impressions but then when you get to know me i tend to make horrible second impressions. I am in no way shape or form the perfect diabetic, my gravestone will say "died from sugar." I tell people when i'm low please give me a mountain dew, ha! though i cannot condone eating so unhealthy (it's like i ever went to the store bought every reese peanut butter candy bar and sent them to my husband, ha i do support candy for troops), i do think having a treat once in while, or planning for sweets, or finding new alternatives to sweets (remainder to get recipes from gerri :). I judge not, and i prefer the term fluffy (points if you can guess what comedian that is). If you need a shoulder to cry on please add me as a friend, we can talk it over with some sugar free jello.
Friday, June 25, 2010
blah blah blah
I think some people confuse whine with struggle, or loneliness, or cry for help...
My aunt told me that complained to much about diabetes, once she said that I didn't say a word, which meant alot of the times when i was around here i never let her know how i was really doing.It hurt my feelings that she said that, when i thought she was the one person i could talk to.
I don't blame people for whining, i don't blame people for bolusing for super high carb meals, or skipping insulin, or pretending for one day that what you do doesn't affect your health, i don't blame them for being scared of eating candy or going out to eat or talking to other people about diabetes. I don't blame people for not caring. the reason i don't blame them is because we all go through the denial, guilt, anger that is associated with this disease. The thing they don't tell you is you never truly over come all those emotions, because once you got the handle on one thing life will throw you another curve ball.
I would like to thank Tudiabetes, for being a place for diabetics to speak out , and a place where you never feel alone in the disease. Because if it wasn't for this place, i would probably be in my own deep dark hole, letting the loneliness get to me. This site has made me laugh, sigh, cry, appreciate, educated, and has let me become more aware of my diabetic surroundings (from new gadgets, techniques, and good friends with great advice).
So forgive me if i whine,gripe, grouse,
grumble,
moan, plaintive
cry,
sob, wail,bellyache,
carp,
drone, fuss, gripe,
grouse,
grumble,
howl, kick, mewl,
moan,
murmur,
pule,
repine,
snivel,
sob,
wail,
whimper,
yowl,
accuse,
ascribe,
attack,
beef,
bellyache,
bemoan,
bewail,
bit**, carp,
cavil,
charge,
contravene, criticize, defy, demur, denounce, deplore,
deprecate, differ,
disagree, disapprove, dissent,
expostulate,
find
fault,
fret, fuss,
gainsay,
grieve,
gripe,
groan, grouse,
growl, grumble,
impute,
indict,
kick
up
a
fuss,
lament,
lay, look
askance,
make
a
fuss,
moan,
nag, object,
oppose,
protest,
refute,
remonstrate,
repine,
reproach, snivel,
sound
off,
take
exception
to,
wail,
whimper,yammer about diabetes.
No one said you had to listen :D, but to those that do i promise to hear you out to.
We are not in this fight alone, i think tudiabetes is a safe haven for us all.
My aunt told me that complained to much about diabetes, once she said that I didn't say a word, which meant alot of the times when i was around here i never let her know how i was really doing.It hurt my feelings that she said that, when i thought she was the one person i could talk to.
I don't blame people for whining, i don't blame people for bolusing for super high carb meals, or skipping insulin, or pretending for one day that what you do doesn't affect your health, i don't blame them for being scared of eating candy or going out to eat or talking to other people about diabetes. I don't blame people for not caring. the reason i don't blame them is because we all go through the denial, guilt, anger that is associated with this disease. The thing they don't tell you is you never truly over come all those emotions, because once you got the handle on one thing life will throw you another curve ball.
I would like to thank Tudiabetes, for being a place for diabetics to speak out , and a place where you never feel alone in the disease. Because if it wasn't for this place, i would probably be in my own deep dark hole, letting the loneliness get to me. This site has made me laugh, sigh, cry, appreciate, educated, and has let me become more aware of my diabetic surroundings (from new gadgets, techniques, and good friends with great advice).
So forgive me if i whine,gripe, grouse,
grumble,
moan, plaintive
cry,
sob, wail,bellyache,
carp,
drone, fuss, gripe,
grouse,
grumble,
howl, kick, mewl,
moan,
murmur,
pule,
repine,
snivel,
sob,
wail,
whimper,
yowl,
accuse,
ascribe,
attack,
beef,
bellyache,
bemoan,
bewail,
bit**, carp,
cavil,
charge,
contravene, criticize, defy, demur, denounce, deplore,
deprecate, differ,
disagree, disapprove, dissent,
expostulate,
find
fault,
fret, fuss,
gainsay,
grieve,
gripe,
groan, grouse,
growl, grumble,
impute,
indict,
kick
up
a
fuss,
lament,
lay, look
askance,
make
a
fuss,
moan,
nag, object,
oppose,
protest,
refute,
remonstrate,
repine,
reproach, snivel,
sound
off,
take
exception
to,
wail,
whimper,yammer about diabetes.
No one said you had to listen :D, but to those that do i promise to hear you out to.
We are not in this fight alone, i think tudiabetes is a safe haven for us all.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
domo podder
I started the pump... so far really really cool.
Top ten "what the heck is that" answers when people see the omni pod
1. super new nicotine patch for hard core addicts
2.attached to you mp3 player haha ipod
3.calorie counter or step counter
4.(with sticker on) new tattoo
5. new style of piercing lol
6.white "bump" or overgrowth
7.(pdm) new cell or personal pc
8.(clicking noise) what else, a bomb
9.dog chew toy (the puggle chewed on it through my shirt!)
10. the solution to diabetes or what my trainer said "what she had been waiting for after ten years of doing mdi"
Thursday, April 15, 2010
why you should spring clean
I'm making up ten reasons that most will think of :)
1. Have a yard sale!!! (me? to lazy)
2. Donate to good will (me? i will be doing this)
3. Get rid of junk and stuff you don't use anymore in other words if it hiding underneath your bed, you haven't seen it for years/months, get rid of it (me? so far so good)
4.Make room for new stuff!! If you get rid of stuff the next time you want to impulse buy, then you can you have room(me? how i make myself feel better)
5. Less Junk makes you feel like you have more room (me? i can see my floor!)
6. Take stuff to consignment shop/thrift store for mola (me? might check it out)
7. Open windows up and let the sun shine where it hasn't been for a while (me? plan on it)
8. You probably need a new toothbrush and as well as cleaning supplies, so stock up (me? check)
9.Condense stuff when you get rid of stuff, like get rid of dvd boxes and put them in a case (me?check)
10. THE BEST REASON TO SPRING CLEAN, you may find MONEY!!!!!! I found 20 bucks from my grandma from god knows how long ago!! I just got 20 richer :D, i'm going out tonite! LOL
1. Have a yard sale!!! (me? to lazy)
2. Donate to good will (me? i will be doing this)
3. Get rid of junk and stuff you don't use anymore in other words if it hiding underneath your bed, you haven't seen it for years/months, get rid of it (me? so far so good)
4.Make room for new stuff!! If you get rid of stuff the next time you want to impulse buy, then you can you have room(me? how i make myself feel better)
5. Less Junk makes you feel like you have more room (me? i can see my floor!)
6. Take stuff to consignment shop/thrift store for mola (me? might check it out)
7. Open windows up and let the sun shine where it hasn't been for a while (me? plan on it)
8. You probably need a new toothbrush and as well as cleaning supplies, so stock up (me? check)
9.Condense stuff when you get rid of stuff, like get rid of dvd boxes and put them in a case (me?check)
10. THE BEST REASON TO SPRING CLEAN, you may find MONEY!!!!!! I found 20 bucks from my grandma from god knows how long ago!! I just got 20 richer :D, i'm going out tonite! LOL
Friday, March 26, 2010
Happy Domo Day to All
WHY have a happy domo day??? Because today is my birthday!!! YYAYAYAYY and NAYYYY
Even though it's my birthday, i actually don't normally celebrate it...unless telling everybody it's my birthday counts..... :D:D:D:D:D I never expect anything and does make me think oh no...another year gone by what do i have to show... Well if there is one thing i will be happy about it will hopefully be that i will be pumping soon. I'm wearing the omnipod demo pod right now!!! I went to a seminar a day ago. I Learned alot stuff i already knew, thanks to omnipod user group, and here's what i can remember off the top of my head that i like
1. TUBELESS, no brainer right there
2. SMALL, getting smaller
3. INNOVATIVE, neato all in meter/pda (now if only it could play mp3s...)
4. CONTROL, i can finally stop being afraid of exercise!
oh yeah and lot stuff about atheletes and such being able to use it, i saw the video!
Things i might not like.... meter/pda is kinda bulky... i keep on knocking into things... i am not going to like this on my stomache at all...getting used to pump talk :P
but overall what's most important is that it's covered by my insurance, a women in there with her fam asked why the seminar isn't full well DUH not everybody can get this covered or knows about it. I guess Ohio is one of the last few.... plus it looks like a mutant egg hatched on my skin and is claiming my body to breed on... anybody ever watch Buffy the vampire slayer? This is why i would never will watch a egg in school (i'd hard boil it anyway) (anybody get this reference and can name the episode will be considered totally awesome in my book)
Of course you know they have to be paying Jonas brother underneath the table...
BUT i still have to wait for my docs approval... yikes. So hopefully they call me tomorrow when they see that omnipod faxed them the papers... maybe it's wishful thinking but i hope he just signs it (we briefly talked about it in the past couple times).
I wish everybody lots of forbidden cakes and cookies on my birthday, though i will not be splurging to much (trying to keep my a1c slim)... I would kill for a coke zero. :D
Even though it's my birthday, i actually don't normally celebrate it...unless telling everybody it's my birthday counts..... :D:D:D:D:D I never expect anything and does make me think oh no...another year gone by what do i have to show... Well if there is one thing i will be happy about it will hopefully be that i will be pumping soon. I'm wearing the omnipod demo pod right now!!! I went to a seminar a day ago. I Learned alot stuff i already knew, thanks to omnipod user group, and here's what i can remember off the top of my head that i like
1. TUBELESS, no brainer right there
2. SMALL, getting smaller
3. INNOVATIVE, neato all in meter/pda (now if only it could play mp3s...)
4. CONTROL, i can finally stop being afraid of exercise!
oh yeah and lot stuff about atheletes and such being able to use it, i saw the video!
Things i might not like.... meter/pda is kinda bulky... i keep on knocking into things... i am not going to like this on my stomache at all...getting used to pump talk :P
but overall what's most important is that it's covered by my insurance, a women in there with her fam asked why the seminar isn't full well DUH not everybody can get this covered or knows about it. I guess Ohio is one of the last few.... plus it looks like a mutant egg hatched on my skin and is claiming my body to breed on... anybody ever watch Buffy the vampire slayer? This is why i would never will watch a egg in school (i'd hard boil it anyway) (anybody get this reference and can name the episode will be considered totally awesome in my book)
Of course you know they have to be paying Jonas brother underneath the table...
BUT i still have to wait for my docs approval... yikes. So hopefully they call me tomorrow when they see that omnipod faxed them the papers... maybe it's wishful thinking but i hope he just signs it (we briefly talked about it in the past couple times).
I wish everybody lots of forbidden cakes and cookies on my birthday, though i will not be splurging to much (trying to keep my a1c slim)... I would kill for a coke zero. :D
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