I'm making up ten reasons that most will think of :)
1. Have a yard sale!!! (me? to lazy)
2. Donate to good will (me? i will be doing this)
3. Get rid of junk and stuff you don't use anymore in other words if it hiding underneath your bed, you haven't seen it for years/months, get rid of it (me? so far so good)
4.Make room for new stuff!! If you get rid of stuff the next time you want to impulse buy, then you can you have room(me? how i make myself feel better)
5. Less Junk makes you feel like you have more room (me? i can see my floor!)
6. Take stuff to consignment shop/thrift store for mola (me? might check it out)
7. Open windows up and let the sun shine where it hasn't been for a while (me? plan on it)
8. You probably need a new toothbrush and as well as cleaning supplies, so stock up (me? check)
9.Condense stuff when you get rid of stuff, like get rid of dvd boxes and put them in a case (me?check)
10. THE BEST REASON TO SPRING CLEAN, you may find MONEY!!!!!! I found 20 bucks from my grandma from god knows how long ago!! I just got 20 richer :D, i'm going out tonite! LOL
of sorts
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
Happy Domo Day to All
WHY have a happy domo day??? Because today is my birthday!!! YYAYAYAYY and NAYYYY
Even though it's my birthday, i actually don't normally celebrate it...unless telling everybody it's my birthday counts..... :D:D:D:D:D I never expect anything and does make me think oh no...another year gone by what do i have to show... Well if there is one thing i will be happy about it will hopefully be that i will be pumping soon. I'm wearing the omnipod demo pod right now!!! I went to a seminar a day ago. I Learned alot stuff i already knew, thanks to omnipod user group, and here's what i can remember off the top of my head that i like
1. TUBELESS, no brainer right there
2. SMALL, getting smaller
3. INNOVATIVE, neato all in meter/pda (now if only it could play mp3s...)
4. CONTROL, i can finally stop being afraid of exercise!
oh yeah and lot stuff about atheletes and such being able to use it, i saw the video!
Things i might not like.... meter/pda is kinda bulky... i keep on knocking into things... i am not going to like this on my stomache at all...getting used to pump talk :P
but overall what's most important is that it's covered by my insurance, a women in there with her fam asked why the seminar isn't full well DUH not everybody can get this covered or knows about it. I guess Ohio is one of the last few.... plus it looks like a mutant egg hatched on my skin and is claiming my body to breed on... anybody ever watch Buffy the vampire slayer? This is why i would never will watch a egg in school (i'd hard boil it anyway) (anybody get this reference and can name the episode will be considered totally awesome in my book)
Of course you know they have to be paying Jonas brother underneath the table...
BUT i still have to wait for my docs approval... yikes. So hopefully they call me tomorrow when they see that omnipod faxed them the papers... maybe it's wishful thinking but i hope he just signs it (we briefly talked about it in the past couple times).
I wish everybody lots of forbidden cakes and cookies on my birthday, though i will not be splurging to much (trying to keep my a1c slim)... I would kill for a coke zero. :D
Even though it's my birthday, i actually don't normally celebrate it...unless telling everybody it's my birthday counts..... :D:D:D:D:D I never expect anything and does make me think oh no...another year gone by what do i have to show... Well if there is one thing i will be happy about it will hopefully be that i will be pumping soon. I'm wearing the omnipod demo pod right now!!! I went to a seminar a day ago. I Learned alot stuff i already knew, thanks to omnipod user group, and here's what i can remember off the top of my head that i like
1. TUBELESS, no brainer right there
2. SMALL, getting smaller
3. INNOVATIVE, neato all in meter/pda (now if only it could play mp3s...)
4. CONTROL, i can finally stop being afraid of exercise!
oh yeah and lot stuff about atheletes and such being able to use it, i saw the video!
Things i might not like.... meter/pda is kinda bulky... i keep on knocking into things... i am not going to like this on my stomache at all...getting used to pump talk :P
but overall what's most important is that it's covered by my insurance, a women in there with her fam asked why the seminar isn't full well DUH not everybody can get this covered or knows about it. I guess Ohio is one of the last few.... plus it looks like a mutant egg hatched on my skin and is claiming my body to breed on... anybody ever watch Buffy the vampire slayer? This is why i would never will watch a egg in school (i'd hard boil it anyway) (anybody get this reference and can name the episode will be considered totally awesome in my book)
Of course you know they have to be paying Jonas brother underneath the table...
BUT i still have to wait for my docs approval... yikes. So hopefully they call me tomorrow when they see that omnipod faxed them the papers... maybe it's wishful thinking but i hope he just signs it (we briefly talked about it in the past couple times).
I wish everybody lots of forbidden cakes and cookies on my birthday, though i will not be splurging to much (trying to keep my a1c slim)... I would kill for a coke zero. :D
Monday, March 22, 2010
detox isn't the right word
Well I saw my doc today, he removed the tini tiny stitch from my tini tiny pinkie toe. My poor toe is fine thank you, i never even cashed in the vacatin (ha drug joke there). As i was sitting there my doc did his weird "check up," you know where they make you touch your fingers to your thumbs or press on your stomach or make you say ah! He asked me the usual questions: do yousmokedrinktroublebreathingasthmablurryvisionheartdisease in family yada yada yada. I said no.. well my vision has been blurry... My sister with glasses can see farther away then me...
Then the doc told me my A1C.... i already knew it was bad~ he dropped the number 12, i look up smile and say "wow i went up a whole point." In this world having more is a good thing, but when it comes to A1C nobody throws you party unless your under 7. (what's seven like again, god i don't remember). Now the doc put me on antidepressants, there working wonderful , but i wonder where my high sugar related bad mood begins and my normal bad mood ends. So i'm feeling pretty good, maybe not my full self, but that part will never come back because my pancreas decided to retire early in life.
When i walk into the office i told my doc "i think i'm ready for the jump" he did a double take and asked me what i meant. I meant the diabetic jump, or as drug addict would put it "jump to sobriety." Ex. my sobriety is to get back on drugs (well hormone). Does nobody know my diabetic humor by now? I guess telling everybody i got my toe chopped off wasn't funny then...well it was funny to me (don't worry i told them straight away my toe was fine).
Before i left i explained to my doc that i was hesitate on starting mainly because you feel crappy (insert other word) at normal for a while. Then he tells me to start out slowly and work my way up.... DOH! Why didn't i think of that all on my own??? As bad as i have been this whole time, my real trouble was not accepcting diabetes it was getting a jump start on it without feeling like a zombie (but alas i do love zombies). So i'm trying a low dosage of humalog until i work my way back to feeling okay at the normal range of blood sugarsl. But i can't escape the feeling of losing my mind as i sit at 172...I feel like i'm detoxing from a drug, finding my state of normalancy or sobriety of sorts.
In other news i'm looking into the omnipod. Till then i'm at mercy to my lack of strong will around yummy foods. But i really don't want to over do my insulin, i'm not looking forward to the lows. Detox is fine, Intox whatever, low i don't think so.
No more gummy worms
No more choco chip cookies
What to dream of now?
Then the doc told me my A1C.... i already knew it was bad~ he dropped the number 12, i look up smile and say "wow i went up a whole point." In this world having more is a good thing, but when it comes to A1C nobody throws you party unless your under 7. (what's seven like again, god i don't remember). Now the doc put me on antidepressants, there working wonderful , but i wonder where my high sugar related bad mood begins and my normal bad mood ends. So i'm feeling pretty good, maybe not my full self, but that part will never come back because my pancreas decided to retire early in life.
When i walk into the office i told my doc "i think i'm ready for the jump" he did a double take and asked me what i meant. I meant the diabetic jump, or as drug addict would put it "jump to sobriety." Ex. my sobriety is to get back on drugs (well hormone). Does nobody know my diabetic humor by now? I guess telling everybody i got my toe chopped off wasn't funny then...well it was funny to me (don't worry i told them straight away my toe was fine).
Before i left i explained to my doc that i was hesitate on starting mainly because you feel crappy (insert other word) at normal for a while. Then he tells me to start out slowly and work my way up.... DOH! Why didn't i think of that all on my own??? As bad as i have been this whole time, my real trouble was not accepcting diabetes it was getting a jump start on it without feeling like a zombie (but alas i do love zombies). So i'm trying a low dosage of humalog until i work my way back to feeling okay at the normal range of blood sugarsl. But i can't escape the feeling of losing my mind as i sit at 172...I feel like i'm detoxing from a drug, finding my state of normalancy or sobriety of sorts.
In other news i'm looking into the omnipod. Till then i'm at mercy to my lack of strong will around yummy foods. But i really don't want to over do my insulin, i'm not looking forward to the lows. Detox is fine, Intox whatever, low i don't think so.
No more gummy worms
No more choco chip cookies
What to dream of now?
Sunday, March 21, 2010
goals goals goals
Goals goals goals, everybody sets them and tries to knock them down. Well being a procrastinator by nature and only having a bed in my effieceny apartment to sit/lay/eat/sleep on...i find goals troublesome. I start projects and never finish them, which is probably why laundry never gets where its supposed to. But i guess you have to start somewhere.... but i've been hiding from my diabetes for so long... i can go around in circles of excuses. BUT that's why this site is nice... you can't use any excuses here.... I don't feel good, I don't like injections,i hate counting carbs, blah blah blah. I guess it helps to open up but when you do people expect things from you! GASP, believe me i know because everybody around me assumes i know what i'm doing, and i like that, because then they don't look twice when i eat something i shouldn't, there minds are to busy to see what i hide or eat. You can't forget there looks of disappointment, but they fade when the subject changes.... Even my doc can't really help me unless i help myself.
WHY WHY WHY don't these precious diabetics do what there suppose to? Are we stupid? Un compliant? Are we insane (hey sometimes i feel crazy). Am i still mourning my past life, i think i'll always mourn that life.... Am i angry,guility, scared? YES. If i had to explain it i would put it this way "i don't like how i feel when i don't act diabetic, and i don't like how i feel when i do." I always figured you had to emotionally handle diabetes before you could be diabetic, but we can't just take a pause from life to do that. Life just isn't fair like that, so we have to struggle and balance a million things at once: emotions, checking sugars, bad days, weird days, bad sugars and of course the only explantion for bad sugars can be dechipered through how we deal with LIFE. I wish diabetes was as simple as taking a pill and a shot and i'm all good. But no it takes so much more work then that, nobody can understand, and the few around us that do never really see how much we think about it. CONSTANT reminders during our rush through life, hold us back because we just can't be sponatenous anymore. Everything has to be planned, or at least thrown together to make sure its plan (thats me). Its not fun disease that's for sure, but since none of us really wanna die...i guess we gotta do what we gotta do, just how do i make myself do what i gotta do?
Well the one goal i do have before thursday is to cook a meal... not sure what to cook yet, i feel like i have another million things i gotta do before i even do that... I hate baby steps (hahah what about bob) so i don't know... guess start thinking less and start doing more.
My list of goals for the week
1. go grocery shopping and pick out stuff for recipe
2. hahaha find recipe of something i wanna cook
3. clean house, zzzzzzz
4. sort through stuff and start packing the stuff that goes to good will
5.try not to oversleep
6. doc on monday, ask for referal to diabetes educators
7. get my free offer of kwik humalog pins
8.try to stop eating out...yeah right!!
9. Take insulin
10. Check and document sugars.
WHY WHY WHY don't these precious diabetics do what there suppose to? Are we stupid? Un compliant? Are we insane (hey sometimes i feel crazy). Am i still mourning my past life, i think i'll always mourn that life.... Am i angry,guility, scared? YES. If i had to explain it i would put it this way "i don't like how i feel when i don't act diabetic, and i don't like how i feel when i do." I always figured you had to emotionally handle diabetes before you could be diabetic, but we can't just take a pause from life to do that. Life just isn't fair like that, so we have to struggle and balance a million things at once: emotions, checking sugars, bad days, weird days, bad sugars and of course the only explantion for bad sugars can be dechipered through how we deal with LIFE. I wish diabetes was as simple as taking a pill and a shot and i'm all good. But no it takes so much more work then that, nobody can understand, and the few around us that do never really see how much we think about it. CONSTANT reminders during our rush through life, hold us back because we just can't be sponatenous anymore. Everything has to be planned, or at least thrown together to make sure its plan (thats me). Its not fun disease that's for sure, but since none of us really wanna die...i guess we gotta do what we gotta do, just how do i make myself do what i gotta do?
Well the one goal i do have before thursday is to cook a meal... not sure what to cook yet, i feel like i have another million things i gotta do before i even do that... I hate baby steps (hahah what about bob) so i don't know... guess start thinking less and start doing more.
My list of goals for the week
1. go grocery shopping and pick out stuff for recipe
2. hahaha find recipe of something i wanna cook
3. clean house, zzzzzzz
4. sort through stuff and start packing the stuff that goes to good will
5.try not to oversleep
6. doc on monday, ask for referal to diabetes educators
7. get my free offer of kwik humalog pins
8.try to stop eating out...yeah right!!
9. Take insulin
10. Check and document sugars.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
i fell off the wagon and it trampled me
YEP i'm officially undiabetic at the momment. Am i proud of it... no... not really.
I'll put it to you this way... my doc asked why and i said the best way i can explain is this:
"I don't like how i feel when i am diabetic, and just as equally i don't like how i feel when i'm not"
It's like i said before... if you can't handle diabetes emotionally then how are you going to deal with the little things in a diabetes life.... How is one to know what they can handle unless they try...
All i know is that since i've started taking antidepressants, i'm pretty happy either way. ( that was a joke, laugh!)
Which leads me to my memorial tattoo i want someday.... i want it to mourn my past life as undiabetic: eating what i want, the alcoholic i could have been (jokes people jokes), the professional sumo wrestler or hotdog eater or heck even super thin model!
Anything else i can memorialize?
I'll put it to you this way... my doc asked why and i said the best way i can explain is this:
"I don't like how i feel when i am diabetic, and just as equally i don't like how i feel when i'm not"
It's like i said before... if you can't handle diabetes emotionally then how are you going to deal with the little things in a diabetes life.... How is one to know what they can handle unless they try...
All i know is that since i've started taking antidepressants, i'm pretty happy either way. ( that was a joke, laugh!)
Which leads me to my memorial tattoo i want someday.... i want it to mourn my past life as undiabetic: eating what i want, the alcoholic i could have been (jokes people jokes), the professional sumo wrestler or hotdog eater or heck even super thin model!
Anything else i can memorialize?
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
lavacakes ahoy
yes i'm finally being a good diabetic... i don't want to sound overly proud about it, because i still want and do eat my fave fast food... i just account for it now :D. I am staying away from sweets, i'm saving those for the lows (shudder).
I guess what got me is i was sick of wasting my time and my docs time and i was sick of feeling sick, so i jumped head first the day after my doc appt.
It's really not as hard as i've been making it out to be these last couple of months (loads of months), the doing part is the easy part now for me, it's like second nature now when i think of eating.
I guess the hard part will be continuing and dealing with the curve balls (god forbid i start exercising just yet!).
The thing that really got me is what my doc said about lantus, he said if i don't eat all day my sugar should be the same. So now i'm less strict about when i eat, and i've learned that alot of times i ate when i was perfectly full just because my sugar was leveling out.
So far my ratio is about 4:10, that's four units for every ten carbs. On top of that i take 40 units of levimir at night.
My eating is sub par at the moment because i'm to lazy to grocery shop, but i make sure i take the correct amount of insulin for whatever i'm eating no matter where.Thats how i started checking my sugar, is just making myself count the carbs and take the right medicine right then and there. I used my wavesense blood sugar application, to keep my results on hand. But since my doc doesn't do email... he wasn't impressed with my device so next time i'll have to manually write
them out (grr). My standard deviation is: 80
I kinda like just eating three meals a day, maybe a snack before bed. I was going crazy eating 3 meals and snacks a day, i felt like a pig! I hope i can distinguish between when i'm actually hungry and when i'm not.... and i hope to start eating a little bit better. But you better believe i'm still spontaneous, so you better hide your cookies cuz i might just steal them...
I'm not incredibly proud of it.. but i'm not ashamed... i've been put on antidepressants... i think they're really helping... my thinking is better and i actually care a little bit more about taking care of myself. I'm not as sad anymore, but don't get me wrong i can still get emotional just more for the right reason now.(missing my hubby)
back on the diabetic wagon, unless dominos lavacakes find their way around me..
shout out to robyn my fellow chocolate conspirator!
I guess what got me is i was sick of wasting my time and my docs time and i was sick of feeling sick, so i jumped head first the day after my doc appt.
It's really not as hard as i've been making it out to be these last couple of months (loads of months), the doing part is the easy part now for me, it's like second nature now when i think of eating.
I guess the hard part will be continuing and dealing with the curve balls (god forbid i start exercising just yet!).
The thing that really got me is what my doc said about lantus, he said if i don't eat all day my sugar should be the same. So now i'm less strict about when i eat, and i've learned that alot of times i ate when i was perfectly full just because my sugar was leveling out.
So far my ratio is about 4:10, that's four units for every ten carbs. On top of that i take 40 units of levimir at night.
My eating is sub par at the moment because i'm to lazy to grocery shop, but i make sure i take the correct amount of insulin for whatever i'm eating no matter where.Thats how i started checking my sugar, is just making myself count the carbs and take the right medicine right then and there. I used my wavesense blood sugar application, to keep my results on hand. But since my doc doesn't do email... he wasn't impressed with my device so next time i'll have to manually write
them out (grr). My standard deviation is: 80
I kinda like just eating three meals a day, maybe a snack before bed. I was going crazy eating 3 meals and snacks a day, i felt like a pig! I hope i can distinguish between when i'm actually hungry and when i'm not.... and i hope to start eating a little bit better. But you better believe i'm still spontaneous, so you better hide your cookies cuz i might just steal them...
I'm not incredibly proud of it.. but i'm not ashamed... i've been put on antidepressants... i think they're really helping... my thinking is better and i actually care a little bit more about taking care of myself. I'm not as sad anymore, but don't get me wrong i can still get emotional just more for the right reason now.(missing my hubby)
back on the diabetic wagon, unless dominos lavacakes find their way around me..
shout out to robyn my fellow chocolate conspirator!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
shopping,books,purses
Things I would like to note on my vacation:
Sitting in a bookstore, sipping coffee, and reading diabetic books is the only way to go because out of all those books i found only one that i would actually buy. The others are only helpful if you are brand spanking new diabetic, and most of the info you can find from the internet, on this site, or free diabetic education hand outs.
I love purses and shoes, they will always fit!!
I love the show man vs. food, it makes me want to eat jalapenos.
two bite brownies are dangerously delicious
i think i am okay not living in the city, to many people and lot of them not friendly
i think that no matter how old i am i will always love skulls and roses, and i'll probably never own a a dress, makeup, or highheels. I live by the rule of thumb that you should dress comfortably.
I saw one of our very own in the diabetes forecaste, it was the best part of the magazine to see our Hungary ambassador kristen and tudiabetes mentioned!
Shrimp rules all
katamari is the hardest funniest game ever
i just watched day of the dead, i am now wary of a zombie attack
wavesense rocks my world!
i love the marines, only because my hubby is one!
xmas is a time for watching movies and playing video games, as well as eating good food.
i better get started on that!!
Sitting in a bookstore, sipping coffee, and reading diabetic books is the only way to go because out of all those books i found only one that i would actually buy. The others are only helpful if you are brand spanking new diabetic, and most of the info you can find from the internet, on this site, or free diabetic education hand outs.
I love purses and shoes, they will always fit!!
I love the show man vs. food, it makes me want to eat jalapenos.
two bite brownies are dangerously delicious
i think i am okay not living in the city, to many people and lot of them not friendly
i think that no matter how old i am i will always love skulls and roses, and i'll probably never own a a dress, makeup, or highheels. I live by the rule of thumb that you should dress comfortably.
I saw one of our very own in the diabetes forecaste, it was the best part of the magazine to see our Hungary ambassador kristen and tudiabetes mentioned!
Shrimp rules all
katamari is the hardest funniest game ever
i just watched day of the dead, i am now wary of a zombie attack
wavesense rocks my world!
i love the marines, only because my hubby is one!
xmas is a time for watching movies and playing video games, as well as eating good food.
i better get started on that!!
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